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But that is definitely not the way my specific cookie crumbled. It did not break off into tiny crumbs. It fell around the floor and got stuck to someone's shoe. Not even eaten.

I never wish away my madness anymore. It can be intrinsic to who I am. And like my bio says, I am improved now, superior than before. I like to view my mental illness as a present. It permits me to have far more compassion for others. And I seriously do not think I ever definitely believed that I was great adequate. As is. Plain old ElainaJ. But let me tell you, I've been down and I've been out and I've been a wreck and I've been weak and I've been unwell and there had been folks who nonetheless loved me just as a great deal if not extra.

Being mentally ill taught me that I didn't need to be perfect, that my greatest was, certainly, excellent enough. It taught me that there will normally be a person there to catch me, to adore me, to remind me that I'm very good sufficient.

So what do I want for nowadays? I wish that tomorrow I'm stable. It want not be exceptional and even memorable. tag heuer swiss replica watch I just choose to wake up and go to bed inside a steady frame of mind. It is weird how issues modify like that...from needing to become best to wishing to be regular for just 1 additional day.